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  “What they’re doing isn’t right. People are going to be hurt. I can’t condone that.”

  She bent her head, pressed her mouth against the flat spot above his navel. “I know you can’t. That’s one of the reasons I love you so much.”

  He groaned as she trailed soft kisses upward, bit the tiny nub of his flat copper nipple.

  “You’re playing with fire,” he warned, arousal roughening his voice.

  But Julie simply retraced her path, moving downward this time, ringing his navel with her tongue, moving lower. He was hard, she saw, her fingers stroking over the thick ridge of muscle that had risen beneath the covers. She eased the blanket back, bent and took him into her mouth.

  Patrick gripped the covers, a breath hissing out from between his teeth. Julie felt a shot of satisfaction. He would leave her, she knew. Their time was almost over. In the end she would lose him, but as she continued to stroke him, Julie was determined that he would never forget her.

  CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

  The days careened past, slipping through their fingers like sand through an upended hourglass. They made every moment count, soaking up each experience with quiet desperation.

  As Julie had hoped, Patrick loved Yosemite. They hiked steep trails into the woods, walked paths along babbling streams, and climbed to points that overlooked bottomless precipices.

  Arming themselves with plastic garbage bags pulled on over their clothes, they carried a picnic lunch up to the top of Vernal Falls.

  “There are no waterfalls on Toril,” Patrick said, stopping along the steep trail to admire the rainbows created by the thick spray of water. “There are a few small hills, but no deep valleys, and even those few places lie beneath great domes that keep the temperature constantly controlled.”

  To Julie it seemed a terrible injustice for a vital man like Patrick to be forced to live indoors.

  When they finally reached the top of the steep trail up the falls, Patrick seated himself on a rock near the edge so he could watch the pounding fury of the water rushing over the cliff. With his T-shirt damp and plastered against his muscular chest, his eyes full of wonder and his black hair wet and clinging to his forehead, he had never been more attractive.

  She had never felt so close to despair in knowing their time together was nearly at an end.

  They returned to their cabin late in the afternoon, made love for a while and then napped. Instead of eating supper in the dining room, Patrick ordered room service, trout almondine for her, chicken noodle soup for him, and they stayed in their charming mountain cabin. Sitting cross-legged on the braided rug, they ate in front of the small stone fireplace, Patrick in a pair of sweatpants, Julie wearing one of his shirts.

  “It’s been a wonderful week,” he said when they had finished, his back propped against the sofa, Julie sitting comfortably between his legs, his arms wrapped around her waist. “I’ll never forget it. I’ll never forget you, Julie.”

  A hard lump rose in her throat. “Please, Patrick…if you talk that way you’ll make me cry, and I want these last memories to be happy.”

  His breath came out slowly. He nodded and glanced away. “I just wanted you to know.”

  The lump in her throat ached harder. She knew. How could she not? It was the most wonderful week of her life. She felt the warmth of his lips against her temple, firm, warm lips, beautifully carved in a face so handsome it made her breath catch every time she looked at him.

  “If you could have stayed,” she said softly, “do you think you could have been happy? You’re a scientist. Your people are obviously far advanced in intelligence. Do you think you would have been able to spend a lifetime here on Earth?”

  His chest rumbled softly. “As you said, I’m a scientist. My specialty is the study of life-forms that inhabit other worlds.” His hand smoothed over her hair, long dark fingers slipping through the strands, a firm yet gentle touch. “I’ve only begun to understand the people of Earth. Can you imagine how much there is for a man like me to learn? I could live here a thousand lifetimes and it wouldn’t be long enough.”

  “I wish you could stay.”

  “Julie…”

  “I know. I promised myself I wouldn’t say it.” She glanced toward the flames in the hearth, watched the red-orange fire licking upward. “I just wanted you to know.”

  He didn’t speak, but a fine tremor passed through his body.

  “I wish we had more time,” she said. “I wish we could stay here forever.”

  “So do I. Unfortunately, we can’t,” he said gently, kissing the top of her head. “We have to leave here in the morning. It’s time to go back to L.A.”

  A sliver of ice slid through her, seemed to wrap itself around her heart. She tried to stop the tears from pooling in her eyes, tried to brush them away when they slipped down her cheeks. “Couldn’t we stay just one more day?”

  He only shook his head. “It’s time, Julie. It’s time for me to go home.”

  She turned into his arms and he held her as she cried, stroked her hair and whispered soft words of love. When the fire burned low and a chill invaded the room, he lifted her into his arms and carried her over to the bed. They made love with aching tenderness, and a fierce, almost frantic passion.

  They packed the car just after dawn, a cold day in the mountains, cloudy overhead, sharp with the sting of the coming fall.

  “I wish you could have seen the trees in autumn. The leaves turn such lovely colors, russet and yellow, bronze and crimson.”

  His hand came up to her cheek. “And a dark red with hidden streaks of gold, the color of your hair.”

  She tilted her face into his palm. “It’s beautiful. I know you would love it.”

  “You’re beautiful—and I know I love you.”

  She went into his arms, trying not to cry, then giving way to her tears and sobbing softly against his shoulder. “I feel like I’m dying. I feel like I’m breaking in two.”

  He didn’t answer, but he tightened his hold around her. “I don’t know how I’m going to live without you.”

  They stood that way for long, silent moments, holding each other, the car engine running, shrouding them in white billows of cold morning air. In silence, each of them pulled away.

  Julie forced an overbright smile and opened the passenger door. “We had better get going. L.A.’s a long way away.”

  Patrick simply nodded. He held the door while she slid into her seat, then rounded the car and climbed behind the wheel. Mostly in silence, they drove the curving road down out of the mountains into the San Joaquin Valley. The scenery was as breathtaking as it was on their way in, but this time Patrick didn’t seem to notice.

  They reached his apartment late that evening and Julie stayed over. Neither of them mentioned his leaving, but it hung like a pall over their heads, a deep jagged wound that neither of them could mend. In the morning he went to the office, determined, it seemed, to finalize Patrick’s affairs as best he could before he left.

  He spoke to each of the people he worked with, praising each of them in some special way, letting them know how important each of them was to him.

  Saying goodbye in his own quiet way.

  Julie wondered how much longer she could continue without breaking. The only thing that kept her going was the knowledge that this was as hard for Patrick as it was for her. She knew the pain he was suffering. She didn’t want to make it any worse.

  They spent the night together then returned to the office the following morning, Patrick working hard on last-minute details.

  “I want to leave this place in the kind of shape my father would have wanted. I want to make this as easy on him as I can.”

  Patrick didn’t notice the slip, but Julie did. My father. The words sent an arrow of pain into her heart. Dear God, nothing had ever been so
hard.

  She worked beside him, sifting through escrow files, clearing up loose ends, helping him any way she could. She promised she would do her best to help the staff relocate, or assist Alex in finding someone else to manage the office after he was gone. But every time she looked at him, all she could think was who is going to help me?

  She knew she looked awful. The color was gone from her cheeks and she hadn’t been able to eat. Patrick didn’t look much better. He wasn’t sleeping at all and just barely eating. She guessed he no longer cared about his health. Why should he? Any day now, he would be gone.

  Babs looked at them both with dark worried eyes, but so far she had said nothing. Julie was grateful. She was living on the edge and she wasn’t sure how much more she could take before her slim thread of control finally snapped.

  It was almost noon when he stuck his head through the door. “It’ll be lunch soon. You need to have something to eat. Why don’t we go get a sandwich or something?”

  He didn’t even like sandwiches. But he was obviously worried about her so she said yes just to please him. “Where shall we go?”

  “There’s that little café on Wilshire…Joey’s. That’s usually pretty good.”

  She almost smiled. Patrick was the last man on earth who would know anything about “pretty good” food. The thought made her smile. She must be so tired she was getting rummy.

  Outside the office window, a breeze snapped the flag beside the sign above the door. She took the sweater off her arm and slung it around her shoulders, grabbed her purse, and walked past him out the door. They walked along the sidewalk and turned left at the corner, making their way along Wilshire Boulevard. Traffic buzzed past, horns honking, people swearing at each other the way they always did, but Julie barely heard them.

  They had almost reached the restaurant when Patrick suddenly stopped. Julie turned to look at him, saw him take another unsteady step and stumble backward, landing hard against the rough brick wall.

  “Patrick! My God, what is it?”

  Leaning heavily against the wall, he dragged in several panting breaths, his face as gray as the cement beneath his feet. He grimaced as another sharp pain speared through him.

  “Patrick! For God’s sake—what’s wrong?”

  He jerked violently as another spasm shook him, his body slamming backward against the bricks. “They’ve started…the removal process. I didn’t think it would begin…until sometime tomorrow.”

  Julie’s heart constricted. They couldn’t be taking him. Not now. Not yet. Dear God, don’t let them take him now. He grunted and clamped his jaw, and Julie gripped his arm to help him steady himself.

  “They’re hurting you. Why are they hurting you?”

  “They’re…taking me…all the way out,” he panted. “The other times, part of me remained in Patrick’s body. No one’s ever…been in this long. Apparently…Division is harder than Unification.”

  Julie clutched his shoulder, which was corded with tension and felt hard as steel. “Tell them you have to stay,” she pleaded, frantic now, seizing on the chance she had suddenly glimpsed. “Tell them it hurts too much—you’ll have to stay here. Tell them—”

  He pressed a trembling finger against her lips to stop the words. “I have to go. You know that. They won’t let me stay.” A violent spasm shook him, doubling him over, his stomach knotting in agony. His legs buckled beneath him and he slowly collapsed to the cement.

  “Patrick!” Julie knelt beside him, desperate now, knowing it was useless yet unwilling to let him go. “You can’t go now. Now yet. Please…please don’t leave.”

  A well-dressed couple stopped a few feet away, studying the stricken man with concern. “Somebody better call an ambulance,” the husband said. “Looks like this guy is having a heart attack.”

  Several people stopped and turned, began to press forward. A heavyset woman peered through the circle of onlookers, jerked her cell phone out of her purse and quickly dialed 911. Through the window of the café, Julie saw someone pointing frantically toward the street and a waiter rushed off to make the same call.

  Julie sat down on the sidewalk beside where Patrick lay, his body shaking all over. With trembling hands, she lifted his head into her lap and began to smooth back his hair. “I’ll never forget you, Patrick. Never.”

  He found her hand, struggled to lift it, pressed it against his lips. “Goodbye, my love. Wherever I am, you’ll always be with me.”

  “Patrick…” She bent her head over his, her tears falling freely now, a flood of wetness that ran down her cheeks. “I love you,” she whispered. “Patrick, I love you so much.”

  But Patrick couldn’t hear her. He couldn’t hear the wail of the ambulance siren as it raced down Wilshire Boulevard in a futile attempt to reach him. He couldn’t hear her heartbreaking sobs as she whispered his name.

  Beneath her cold hands, his heart beat only faintly. A meager breath feathered past his lips.

  “No…” Julie whispered, burying her face against his chest. “It’s too soon. The day isn’t over. Please don’t take him yet.”

  But they didn’t hear.

  The ambulance attendants tore her away from him as they frantically worked over his chest, but as soon as he was loaded onto the stretcher, she reached out and took hold of his hand. In the back of the ambulance, they forced oxygen past his lips, used defibrillator paddles to try to get his heart beating again, but nothing they did would work.

  They must have known there was no hope of reviving him for they let her hold on to his hand all the way to the hospital. All the way there, she watched the flat white line of the heart monitor, listened to the dull beep of defeat. The siren screamed as she bent over his body and pressed a final soft kiss on his lips. Then she sank down in the chair beside his lifeless body and sobbed against his chest, a river of tears soaking through the front of his shirt.

  * * *

  Val stood in the transporter room aboard the Ansor, dizzy and disoriented, his body still shaking all over. Grief weighed him down like a shroud and his usually crystal-clear mind refused to work. Along with his overwhelming sadness, he couldn’t seem to see. He closed his eyes and tried to fight the numbness, the ache that throbbed like a wound in his chest. He tried to block the pain that he had brought with him, the knifing sorrow of losing Julie.

  His throat ached. He felt a gauzy robe draped around him, blinked and at last he could see. All ten members of the High Council stood in the chamber, forming a semicircle around him. They had come to observe the final stages of the first successful Unification that had lasted such a long length of time.

  “Commander?” Calas Panidyne moved closer. “Commander Zarkazian, are you all right?”

  He tried to speak, but the words lodged in his throat. He wasn’t all right. He felt torn apart and it wasn’t from the physical battering he had taken.

  “Commander?” One of the ministers walked toward him, her robes floating softly out behind her. He couldn’t remember her name. “What has happened to you, Commander?” She studied his features, reached out and ran her fingers over his face. They came away covered with wetness.

  “That cannot be what it looks like.” He heard the note of awe in a second minister’s voice. “It simply cannot be.”

  “He’s…crying.” A member of the group came closer. “There are pictures in the archives that show what it looked like.” But Val knew it couldn’t be true. Torillians hadn’t cried for ten thousand years.

  “That’s not possible,” Panidyne argued. “Tear ducts are nothing but useless glands. They evolved out of use eons ago.”

  Val reached up and touched his face, felt the astonishing wetness. He thought of Julie and wanted to cry all over again.

  The female minister gently touched his shoulder. “Something terrible has happened to him, can’t you see? What is it, C
ommander? Can you tell us what happened?”

  “Yes, Commander, please.” Another minister pressed forward, third council, one of the more aggressive members of the group. “When you were here before, we saw that you were different, that your time on Earth had changed you. Can you explain what has occurred?”

  He wiped away the last few drops of wetness, thinking of Julie, of the grief still pulsing through him. Even as Patrick, he had never cried.

  He looked at them with a face full of sorrow. “As you said, my time on Earth changed me. Part of me is human now. I believe it always will be.”

  Silence fell over the group.

  The female minister was the first to speak. “And what you are feeling…is that what made you cry?”

  He nodded.

  “What do you call such a feeling?”

  “The emotion is known as grief. It comes from excessive sadness.”

  “And this sadness arises because you had to leave?”

  “Yes.”

  “You aren’t saying you wished to remain?” Panidyne seemed incredulous. “You’re a respected, well-known scientist on Toril. Surely you wish to return to the life you led before.”

  He only shook his head. It was useless and yet he could not stop himself from speaking the truth. “Toril is no longer my home. Another place calls out to me as no place ever has. Earth is where I wish to live. I believe I will die on Toril.”

  Soft murmurs rolled through the small group of observers. There was not the slightest chance they would let him remain, yet at the look on the ministers’ faces, a kernel of hope took root in his chest. He was afraid to let it grow, knew that it would only mean more pain.

  Hope and fear. Emotions that only made him realize how human he had become.

  They talked for a moment more, then Panidyne turned in his direction. “If we were to grant your wish and allow you to remain, you would lose your Torillian strengths. Your lifetime would be no longer than a human’s. Your body would be susceptible to the same diseases, the same failings. Your children would merely be human.”